Yesterday was a mix of emotions - Bug and I headed to the hospital to meet up with hubs to go to our meeting. I was concerned having her in the waiting room with us, just knowing how hard it was for me to see them while I waited each time, but than remembered it gave me a little more hope. They are there with a baby they clearly got from being in this office, so I let that feeling slip away. Bug was in a great mood and was SUPER loud...to the point I was actually trying to shhh a 6 month old - 'cuz she knows what that means...ya dummy!
The nurses all came over to meet her and were over the moon thrilled to finally see her. Then that door opened, the one that made my stomach drop each time, but this time the face that always seemed to look so sad for me was grinning from ear to ear. She couldn't wait to get her hands on Bug and held her for the whole appointment - even nurse Nancy (who I LOVE) came by and yelled at her for hogging the baby.
After much discussion we have all come to an agreement: Fresh Cycle with PGD again. They have changed the way they do things now in regards to the testing. They freeze all individually on Day 5 - ship cells from each one for testing (including our frostie) - body needs to cycle the next month - transfer the following. So now this process is going to take 3 months - sidebar - this killed me when I counted on the calendar when we were discussing because May was when I was supposed to go to Nashville to meet the rest of the girls from our group! Heartbroken!
She is going to be more aggressive with me this time because there really is no fear of overstimulating since it's a longer process....can totally feel me jinxing myself by repeating her statement. Her goal is to have at least 2 good ones - transfer 1 - freeze the other if we decide on baby #3.
The reason we chose to go down this path is because it is the best option for us. Being a carrier for a translocation we have no idea if our frostie is 'normal' and she is not comfortable taking that risk and having me either (a) miscarry or (b) carry to term and lose the baby due to it being a carrier of an unbalanced translocation - I told her if we found out the baby was a carrier I would not be able to term pregnancy and this is when she got firm with her decision not to go FET.
Right now we are in agreement that one goes back in, if we have one, and pray it's a boy. I thought about putting two back if we get two, but after last night.....we can just put one back. Three kids under the age of 3....I'm all set!
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