Still in shock!

And there we have it folks......our one little bean measuring 7wks 2 days! Leading up to this moment I felt I could burst into tears from fear. Fear that there would be nothing there. Fear that there would be no heartbeat. Fear the heartbeat would be weak and we would have to prepare ourselves for another miscarriage. 

They call me in to change into the gowns but told me to keep my shoes on....perfect day to be wearing my UGGS - hubs just busted out laughing when he saw me. We were brought in to the room and she had me lay down so she could do an external u/s first....and then, all of those fears vanished when she said, 'I can see a flicker'. All I could do from crying was squeeze hubs hand. Wipes my belly off and asked me to go empty my bladder - mind you I had JUST gone before going into the waiting room. Get back and the bed is now ready for the internal, hello stirrups.

Then came Wanda the Wand - oh how I have not missed you! The u/s tech was doing her thing, checking the ovaries and surrounding areas. I couldn't stop thinking get on with it! I want to see the heartbeat.

There it was. That fast little flicker that I have longed to see. Heart beat of 153! She said that was perfect - right in the middle of where it should be for this time. Everything looked great and she congratulated us. Had to wait a few minutes for radiology to say all was good before we were allowed to leave to head upstairs to meet with the doc.
I didn't realize it but that was our last meeting. I told her I wasn't ready to 'go upstairs where the "normal" women go" and she just laughed. Told me I could call her with anything if I ever needed her. I thanked her for helping our wish come true and never giving up Hope.
After our appointment we went out for lunch and hubs couldn't wait any longer and sent the u/s picture to his sister. She was so excited and said she knew since we bagged out on the New Years party. I then sent it to one of my sister's who is out of town at a hockey tournament for her boys - she was balling and was so excited. I told her I was sorry for lying to her for so long and she said she would only forgive me if we name her Erin. Mind you we still hadn't received the call it was a girl yet. Once we did, I sent her a text asking if she was sure I had to name HER Erin.....nothing, no response. Headed over to his parents house and they were surprised to see me, kept asking if I was off today. After the barrage of questions I told his mother that she needed to look at that paper that was on top of the pie dish (had to bring back from Christmas). Within seconds of her opening up the u/s pictures, she burst into tears and hugged me. Wouldn't let me go! It was so sweet.
My sister finally called me later last night and was so excited and just kept asking questions. I finally stopped her to ask if she didn't understand my last text message and she said no. When I told her it was a girl I had to pull the phone away from my ear because she was screaming/crying.....mind you with other hockey mom's in the room! I just think she is more excited that she can finally go to the other side of Gap Kids/Baby Gap :)
Sunday will be the big day we tell my family. It's my father's birthday today so I am going to go down to take him to lunch and then my other sister and brother will be coming over for cake.....his gift will be a frame with the embryo - the u/s - and then 'Coming in August'. I'm going to try to find pink stuff to put around it - his first granddaughter. Sunday cannot come fast enough!!!!!!!!!!!