That will go towards IVF. Granted I am a very fortunate woman who's insurance covers pretty much everything but the co-pays, and am still amazed by how you all do this out of pocket. Hats off to you all! One more day closer to finding out if we are good to go with this next cycle...pretty sure we are since I could even tell I was ovulating the other day! So weird to me how in-tune I am with my body after going through all of this - years ago I couldn't even tell you when AF was coming, when I would be ovulating, how many days my cycle was, etc. Now I can tell you what cycle day I am - cycle day 16 by the way!
My mind is having it's own Indy 500 today...I keep thinking, maybe I can find a pair of ruby red slippers, click my heels three times - I'd be past all the shots, beta tests, DREADED 2ww and hearing, "congrats and welcome to your second trimester"...listen a girl can dream right?
Am I ready for this next cycle? Mentally? Physically? I thought I was and them BAM Mr. 'What If' shows up....completely uninvited and most certainly unwelcome....so now I will dance around all the 'what if' questions, comments that will flood my head and try to talk about them with the hubs tonight.
What makes this cycle harder is that we agreed not to tell anyone what we are doing/when anything is....expect my new found family - the infertile's :) You all will have to listen to my rants/roller coaster of emotions because I know each and every one of you get it, you've been there, you've walked down this really bumpy road!
Tonight's new plan - buy vitamins that will help the little guys swim better. Figure why not, if I'm getting all jacked up on meds, he can join me - already hearing the discussions about now he already takes his multi and now he'll have to taken another one....my end to that 'discussion' will be opening the fridge and start to sing the LMFAO song Shots and then continue to sing and probably dance down the hallway into the bathroom and show him the other copious amounts of medication that I have to take.....Kelly 1 - Hubs 0!
Sing like no one is listening.....Dance like no one is watching.....Live today like it is your last.....
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