Happy Birthday To Me!

Leading up to this day I was a ball of nerves. Even though I would check on her every day to make sure her heartbeat was still strong, I still had that fear. Yesterday I pushed through work just watching the clock until it hit noon time to be able to head down for my first appointment. I was trying to engage the hubs in conversation while we waited to be called in but I think he was just so worried about work as there was only one manager in the building - so I think his fears were things were going to be a disaster by the time he got back ;)
Call us in and globs the ultrasound gel all over my belly - huge weight lighted off my chest......there she was moving around like a mad bug! Everything looked great and there was no cause for any concern. I asked if there was any chance to see her in 3D (figured it wouldn't hurt to ask). When she turned it on we both went....'oh, she doesn't look so cute' HAHAH but we were able to get a pretty neat profile picture

She still looks a little creepy but it's okay - she's perfect! Even with half of her head missing....hahaha the tech told us it was because she rotated the image to get the profile, her head is perfect :)  

The doctor was the next to come in with one of their new partners - they went through all the pictures and then took another look. She wanted to get a better picture of the 4 chambers but someone was being a punk - literally had her arms crossed across her chest! HA but she finally was able to get a good look and said heart is perfect.

I still can't get over how we went from having a ball of cells as her 'first' picture to this! Amazing!

Hands down - this was the best birthday gift ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Month of March

This month used to be full of excitement - spring was around the corner, St. Paddy's Day, my birthday..... Three years ago on March 16th our world was taken away from us - our little angel was sent up to watch over us. I always wonder if it was a boy or a girl, what they would be like now. I know people say you cannot live in the past, but this will always be something I will wonder and will cherish my little angel - always! The hubs gave me a necklace that Christmas that is an angel wing and I have yet to take it off!
Every year on March 25th I thank Dr. Mo......the man that saved my life. There will never be words to express my gratitude towards him and his staff, nurse Nazi (as I called her in the beginning) for pushing me to get out of the bed and walk in the hallway - even if it just started out by making it to the next room. The members of this hospital staff helped show me how strong of a person I truly am. That I can overcome some of the toughest obstacles the Big Guy has for me.  I think of how my whole family dropped everything and drove into Boston to sit and wait - wait for the outcome of my surgery. I am so truly blessed to have such an amazing family and thankful for each and every one of them! All of my friends who called, sent flowers, came to see me while I was in the hospital - again, one very lucky girl.

I will continue to show him my strength - each and every day, and this little girl that is growing inside of me will have the same strength and motto, "Put your big girl pants on and figure it out. You have no other choice."

This is what the month of March has turned in to for me.......remembering the horrible loss, nightmare emergency surgery, support of family and friends. I look in the mirror every day and say thank you