Eye Opener

Yesterday was just like any other day at daycare when I went to pick up bug...until I hear 'Code Red' come over the PA system. What went from dancing with bug, laughing and joking with the teachers quickly turned into serious, move your ass mode.

I just stood there not knowing what was going on or what to do. One teacher looked at me and said in a stern voice, she goes in crib and we all go in the bathroom. It's a lock down code. I quickly put bug into the crib with two other babies and run to hold the door open for everyone. They wheeled the kids in, carried a few and told one of the other mothers, who was in the hallway getting ready to leave, that she had to come in to the bathroom with us.

We stood there in the dark - door locked - teacher fumbling to find a flashlight in their emergency backpack - babies screaming. My stomach was in my throat....it hit me. I will never be able to imagine what any of those teachers/children felt or thought when they were going through it for real. They hid scared, wondering what was going to happen.

It was just a short time before someone was banging on the door - now is this a test, do we open it? The banging was getting louder. We then heard 'All Clear' and opened the door. Before I could blink I was scooping up my daughter to calm her down, to hold her, to let her know mommy was there.

The other mother and I asked how often do they do these and why now. The teacher informed us that ever since the Newtown shooting they do these drills once a month, but wasn't sure why they were doing one that day since they just had one last week. We think it was because there were an unusual number of parents picking up and they wanted to show us the drill - which is great, but shit......makes you realize that no matter where you go, you are never safe.

I get to the car and start to cry.

Damn you Lupron!!!!!!!

OH fun fact Friday:
  My father, both my sisters and I all went to the same college - Norwich University!

Green Light Means......GO!!!!!

Let the emotions begin! I went in for bw yesterday morning (had me come in early due to some spotting) and got the call that I can go ahead and start my meds the next morning. One problem with that - I haven't called them in yet!!!! Left a message to see if I can start tomorrow night and then back to the morning if the hubs isn't able to go pick them up - thankfully the place is only 15 minutes from his work.

As the day went on, I couldn't help begin to panic and play the what if game. I just wanted to close my eyes and have it be transfer time. The next month is going to be a tough one - especially with having to hide it all from our families - we joked last night that I would have to hide the bag full of needles since his mom watches bug at the house....that would be an interesting conversation!

Hubs got home with the meds last night and my stomach dropped as I was pulling it all out of the bag. Can I do this again? Am I ready to put my body/mind through it all? I know the answer is yes - I know I have no option if we want to expand our family.

Got up at my normal time and prepped for the first injection. 20 units???? What in the fuck?????? That's a lot of Satan juice!!! Maybe it won't be that terrible since they've told me this is the 'diluted Lupron'......yeah, we'll see!

Fun Fact Friday

Because Throw Back Thursday is already played out ;) I thought it would be fun to give a little insight about me....not that many of you care, but just something to write about. Will try to keep it up every week, but cannot promise I won't miss a few!

I have 2 older sisters and 1 younger brother
My parents will have been married for 41 years come this May
I like to think of myself as a 'creative' person - hell I'm no Martha Stewart, but have always loved Art, Photography.

Rando fact: my right leg is 1/2" longer than my left!

Don't post it if you don't want comments....

Good ol' Crackbook (aka Facebook) - keeps most of us entertained throughout the day. Let's us keep in touch with friends/family members. It let's us 'post' what we are thinking/feeling. But let's make one thing very clear, if you don't want to hear people's comments, DON'T post shit!

The other day a friend of mine posted the article about the guy who 'founded' Girls Gone Wild...Joe something or other....and his girlfriend are preggers - how they chose to do IVF and genetic testing. Above the article she posted how she was disturbed that this is what the world is coming too....that people are choosing to do IVF and testing. Cue me not letting this one go! I quickly responded saying my daughter was a result of IVF and genetic testing. I said that I am sure her whole story wasn't written as no one chooses to go through IVF and went on with a few more statements.
All of my comments were to educate her - nothing was meant to be mean or make her feel bad. I quickly got a PM saying how she was sorry about the post and took it down after she read my response because I was right and she didn't want anyone to think she was being insensitive.
First - wasn't the point of my response....Second - I know I was right with what I wrote because I lived it.

Second time was this morning when another friend of mine posted how they told their children there was no Easter Bunny. They are a very Christian family and said they never meant to celebrate the bunny, but made sure the baskets always had Christian things in there. This year they are going to focus on St. Nick and not Santa. Now the comments were nothing bad, just how people choose to do things their way. She came back guns blazing saying how she is not forcing their ideas down any one's throats...oh and she loved everyone. Pretty sure that was to make sure everyone knew she was 'speaking' in a friendly voice.

I rarely ever post on my wall for this very reason. There are a million things I could post but I really don't want to listen to the ignorant comments that I will probably have to listen to....because there would be. But come on people, you know as soon as you hit enter you are allowing everyone you choose to see what you post. You should expect people to comment on it. Not everyone is going to agree with what you say and you shouldn't bite back.....as a 5 year old would say.....you started it!

Pinterest

We've all been there - searched through the millions of pictures, crafts, quotes and thought, wow that's a great idea, I can totally do that.
Now if you are Martha Stewart, chances are yes, you probably can. But for most people out there - not so much. I do admit that I go on weekly to look for ideas and can proudly say that I have made almost everything on my Food Board (some didn't turn out so hot, but others were great).
I have saved some ideas for future photo shoot ideas (getting more serious with my photography), saved ideas for birthday's, exercises and such. But some of the stuff out there....I mean come on, who the hell has that kind of time. For example:

A water balloon slip and slide. What in the......does it look cool, absolutely. But riddle me this batman - who in their right mind would sit and fill each one of these little balloons? Honestly? And how would it really work - once you get that running start, leap in the air and land, wouldn't they just pop????

*and yes, I do realize that this image went through photoshop - you would need a small army and a lot of patience to pull this one off

Weekend with the family

This past weekend was family dinner down at my parents house (although my sister and her family were unable to make it....part family dinner we shall call it). I decided to go down in the morning so I had some time with my parents and didn't feel rushed to get there and then turn around and leave.
I was so excited that I could finally get bugs Chuck Taylor's on - when we got to my parents I asked my mom to take a picture - absolutely love how it turned out:

Here is another shot of her on my dad's basketball from when he was a kid....totally doesn't bounce anymore so not sure why they keep it: